I've been vacant, my mind filled with other things besides grief. Plans are being made and chinks of light are making their way into cobwebbed corners. I'm on duty all day and mostly all night due to Xander's and my insomnia when Gary is out of town - still forgot to buy Benadryl for myself. It will all calm down soon. I'll be back to calm with no plans and the book will be finished (maybe it will finish itself in my vague absence?) and we'll fly off in the night to somewhere with flowers.